All I can say about today is amazing! It was breathtaking to see how many people came out to support us in this hard time. As hard as today was I think that it will help with the healing process. However, it is so hard to grasp the idea that my daughter is gone. But I think I really need to just say it to help with the closer...my daughter is dead and not coming back. If I keep saying "gone" I may start to think that she is just that...gone somewhere on a trip and maybe coming back. But she's not and I'll just have to be patient and have faith that one day I WILL be with her again. At one point today all I wanted to do was grab her urn and sit alone and just ugly cry. And I did just that. I didn't worry or care how I looked when I was done and I was thankful that those around me didn't come up and comfort me. I just needed time with my daughter.
I feel so blessed to be surrounded by so many friends and family that are there for me and Chris. I think the thing that helped me the most was when they didn't try to say anything and all they did was hug me and let me cry. That was the most helpful thing someone can do.
I was thinking about you guys all day today. I am so glad you had so much support and that you were able to just cry when you needed to! Sounds like today offered you some healing (not nearly enough), but still we take every little bit we can :)
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